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Re: A moment of silence for a friend -
2 Weeks Ago
I appreciate everyone saying what they're saying (typing), but I feel weird being the object of "sorry for your loss." I can't quite explain it, but "my loss"? That seems selfish to me. A guy lost his life - his loss trumps mine.
I hope that doesn't come off as rude to anyone. It just feels awkward or somehow wrong to feel like I'm the one who's lost something here. I mean, I get the reality that I no longer have a friend today that I had yesterday morning, but... that just seems... petty? Small? Insignificant? I don't know. Maybe I just suck at grieving?
I feel very insecure about even sending this because I can't quite explain the feeling I get, and I'm hoping that, despite past experiences trying to say something in typed words that I know I can't explain very well in typed words being taken the wrong way, that this time it's taken the right way.
Again, please just honor my pal, my friend, by saying the things you think but rarely say to your friends, loved ones, etc. I'm okay - I'm still alive and grateful for that, and am extra grateful for the friends that remain, while at the same time saddened by the loss of one.
And if I've failed completely at getting even a piece of what I mean across, please again know I'm grateful for everyone's well wishes and don't mean to convey otherwise.
Erik J. Barzeski
What I Play:
909D3 9.5°, UST ProForce V2 Stiff | 909F3, 15°, UST ProForce V2 Stiff | 909H, 17°, UST ProForce V2 Stiff | Forged AP2 or TM RAC MB TP Smoke, Project X 6.0 | Vokey Oil Can Spin Milled 54.10/60.04 | 33" Scotty Cameron Putter (model varies) | Pro V1x | Leupold GX-I Laser Rangefinder
Where I Play:
Lake View Country Club (72.4/139), Whispering Woods Golf Club (72.2/141)
How I Want to Play:
2009 Goals
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