Im in the same boat, yet Ive made a lot of progress over the last year.
Instead of a goal of breaking 100, I use the goal of breaking 50 for 9 holes. Cuz I often have something like a 48 out then 55 in.
I don;t want to say I didnt reach my goal of 100, rather I had one good 9 hole round out of 2.
I ignore the par numbers on the scorecard 3,4 or 5. I will even black them out if not sharing a scorecard, and fill in my
own "pars" based on my handicap. My GHIN is...