Maybe noone of you would think that scratch golf is my goal for the end of next year but it is. I know it's unrealistic but I always set hard goals. I just realized that it isn't so hard to play scratch golf. My short game is pretty well but I'm getting frustrated after one bad shot very fast. And that often is the end of my good golf for that round. And it's not so good that I am 17 minutes driving car away from the next golf course
I don't know why you say that. If this is your goal and you are sincear in this, then live it and go for it, don't let anyone say you can't..
If you get flustered after one bad shot, you have a long way to go, but your young and you will learn to control your emotions. The great thing about golf is, if you have one bad shot you can make one great shot to make up for it. There isn't a need to live your whole round on one shot. Learn to pick your battles, not every hole needs to be a birdie. Learn the golf course, learn how your game fits it, learn were you need to grind out pars, and learn were you can turn on the heat to make birdies. But first thing you need to do is,
1) stop thinking everyone is against you getting to scratch
2) control your anger
3) learn game management, because no matter how good you can play, no matter how much talent you have, it can all go to hell in a hand basket if you can't control yourself and know when to slam on the accelerator. Look at Phil, great talent, but probably could have won twice as many majors and more tournaments if he knew control.
4) stop comparing yourself to other people, it only breads insecurity and anxiety, which will feed bad emotions on the golf course. You play your own game and they play theres. Who cares if others are better at you know, keep your goals insight and work towards it.
5) another way to get on the tour, be a very accomplished amateur golfer and get exemptions. Especially if you are in Europe, work on being an amateur there, try to play through the European tour and get some exemptions, then if you do well there you can get on the money list and get your card as well.