Yesterday was the annual Ball Buster at my course. This is where you tip out the course, if not longer, and put pins on the middle of a slope and/or the edges of the greens. Course played tough, but was even harder because of the weather. The first 9 holes were played in a windy, rain storm. After 9, the rain stopped and the wind picked up even more. Greens rolled well, but fairways are soggy. Every winter, the fairways go to soggy messes.
Scrambles are always fun to play in. I enjoy playing with friends and having a few drinks, BUT I hate it because my swing always seems to go away. I'll always continue to play in them. Maybe next time will be different, and it never is. I just don't perform in scrambles. OR maybe it's that I do perform the same but it looks worse because I expect a perfect shot every time or my team expects a perfect shot every time from me. I'm the big stick, so I'm expected to hit the big drives in the fairway and then I'm the pickup guy when everybody misses the green. I'm the guy who watches everybody else's putt, and is expected to make it from 30ft because someone lipped out. I succeed on some of these challenges and fail at the others, but if I was to succeed at all these challenges, I would be on tour or better. I can't expect myself to be perfect, because I'm not. But it doesn't make me feel any better. We came in 4th net and got our money back plus a little, so we finished well.
I like golf because there's only one person that can effect your score and that's yourself. No one to back you up if you miss. In some ways there's more pressure because of that, but in other ways it's less because you accept the outcome of your successes and failures. On a team, I can't control how a player hits his ball, what he's thinking on a putt, or whatnot. When you succeed, you get birdie shots of fireball! When we fail, I feel like blaming myself for not making it better. When I play my own ball, I feel more relaxed.