Trouble with Expression
It's kind of odd. It's not like I have problems in social situations or anything, but I find I spend a lot of time typing up drafts and then deleting them. I've done it three times already, trying to start this blog. I just noticed I spent more than an hour on the site just now, going through different threads, composing responses. Some things I even took the time to research as part of my response. Then, for some reason or another, I decide it's not worth posting and delete the whole thing. It's not just recently, either. I've done this through all the years I've been a member of TST.
I can't put my finger on it. I'm certainly not shy. I'm not afraid to make mistakes, embarrass myself, etc. I just did it again right now; got up to make myself a drink and almost talked myself into deleting this draft.
Is it perfectionism? Am I trying too hard to be perfect at something that can't be perfected? I think I do the same thing with golf. I have to get over this somehow, since life is not about perfect. I'm planning to go back to school next semester and I need to seriously get over this. The point isn't to get a 4.0 GPA.
BTW I just did it again. I didn't like my original title so I thought about changing it. While I was figuring out what I wanted to change it to, thought about deleting the whole entry because it probably isn't worth sharing. Damnit.
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