I am relatively new to golf, but have been practicing a lot and playing several times per week. I have been through spells where I will hit the ball fat or thin, but it is typically on a straight line. The last round I played at my club, which was about ten days ago, something clicked and I started hitting the ball very solid and carded my lowest score ever (41 on the back 9). By miracle, I played the last two holes at (-3) after a 100yd hole-out on Par 4 #17 for an Eagle and three ideal shots and a one-putt on Par 5 #18.
With that preface; I was away from the course and range for about a week due to rain and other commitments. During that week things were off with me. I had been fighting with the wife, didn't get the job I was hoping for, etc. etc. Anyway, two days ago I hit the range and start my routine, chipping to 1/2 to 3/4 to full swing. But before I could even get to 3/4, the ball started dribbling 80 degrees left (I am a lefty). Over and over and over and over, must have been 130 balls, all at half swing, all with the same result. I worked blisters into my hands (which I am sure is a bad grip, but the pace at which i was going at it and the amount of balls I hit...). A couple of times I was actually able to get the ball in the air, straight ahead, but as soon as I thought I had it under control, dribble to the left all over again. I even came home, away from the club, got in my back yard and began to try to chip, not happening.
The S's (esses) are real and I firmly believe they are mental, much like they are depicted in Tin Cup. My head wasn't right when I went out there the last time and they found me. Now, they are all I can think about when I grab a club, creating a viscous cycle of unending negatives surrounding my game. I did the Haney thing too, with the tees, but without the ball. I was able to carve out a path of grass directly between the tees, taking dozens of swings. But once the ball was placed in between them, I was hitting chili dippers again. I may truly be a lost soul.